The Sky Is Turning Black

Neural Pathways

The sky is turning black. It does this from time to time, only just now it’s more of a concern due to the unprecedented weight it has brought with it. I don’t know what will happen if we get crushed. 

I call out to Tommy, but he’s floating in the pool of melancholy wearing nothing but a blue feather boa and a distant smile. The bloody idiot. Indulging in those waters is his favourite thing to do, but it makes him absolutely blind to problems like this. Mind you, he’s arguably more use than Nicole, who is running around the garden with a huge mirror pushed against her face. How she sees where she is going is anyone’s guess, but she claims to be ‘opening new worlds’ in her eyes. I roll mine.  

Laurie and I are more switched on, and we scout the usual neural pathways for an escape route. She takes the pathway of Pharmaceuticals and I take the pathway of Inner Peace. Either one should, in theory, bring us back to the square at a time when the sky has returned to a healthy amber. Admittedly there’s a distant hope we will be taken out of this god forsaken labyrinth altogether, but it’s important not to get carried away when the skies are dark.

The pathway of Inner Peace is usually wide and well-trodden. Today it is littered with trinkets, overgrown bushes and flashing symbols, making it harder for me to find my way. At least the symbols offer a bit more light, but with things not being the way I’m used to, I’m starting to panic. Laurie is growling in frustration and she sounds like she’s in a tunnel. We both turn back to the square having gotten only a fraction of the way down our anticipated escape routes.

“The pills aren’t working!” Laurie yells, her hands held up, shaking and exasperated. I am about to respond that meditation is giving nothing back either, when I realise visibility of the square has actually improved since we left. A glimmer of hope shoots around my veins, displacing the shards of panic. Maybe the pathways did work just a little bit? Then I notice the light isn’t coming from the sky, but streaming out of Nicole’s eyes. It’s bouncing off the mirror, illuminating the pool area.

“Guys! Over here!” It’s Tommy. He’s waving us into the water. Laurie and I exchange a glance and agree we have nothing to lose. We take a dive right in, and I almost get strangled by Tommy’s soggy, discarded feather boa. It’s dark down here, really dark, and the pressure is mounting upon my chest and head. I sense there’s something beneath us, and I feel for it frantically, desperate to get a hold of whatever might be our saviour. Wet canvas, a metal handle, a clasp… It feels like… a suitcase? There’s another, and another and another. The pool of melancholy is made from baggage! Of course it is.

The air in my lungs is reaching its limit for usefulness, but I ignore that as best I can while I fiddle with the nearest clasp. I don’t even consider that it might not open under the weight of the water and the sky, which would be the sensible thing to think; but in the moment I could be drowning, I’m instead filling with determination. Just as I’m sure I’m making progress, someone grabs my arm and pulls me further down until we hit what I’m sure must be rock bottom. 

It seems somehow less wet here, and as I contemplate how little sense that makes, I come to know that I am also breathing fresh air. I open my eyes to see the four of us are sitting in a house made from luggage. Laurie pulls open the curtains and wonderful amber light streams in like we haven’t seen in months. We all laugh out our relief, hard. As I open the door that takes us back into the square, I attempt to make a joke about how unlikely it is for Tommy to be the one forging new neural pathways, but he is already gone. 

14 thoughts on “The Sky Is Turning Black

  1. Incredibly abstract, but in a way that still makes sense- like the pool of melancholy being made out of “baggage”. The setting was a little confusing, especially at the beginning, but I think I more or less got my bearings by the end of it. I’d love to hear more about it though, if you’re up for a little explaining.

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    1. I wanted something abstract and surreal for this one, but I admit it was a gamble as to whether it made sense to anyone. Perhaps it didn’t need to.

      Basically, it’s about depression and anxiety. The dark sky that comes over every now and then, each time seeming worse and more final than the last. It’s about the different sides of the individual experiencing it: one who wants to wallow in the delicious melancholy like a dramatic fool, one who can’t see past the end of her own nose, one who thinks pharmaceuticals will cure her, and one who strives towards getting the mind to heal the body through meditation and yoga but is prone to panic when it doesn’t give instant results. The square is ‘the level’; the psychological place they call normal or home. The pathways are mental habits, chains of thoughts. It’s about forging new ways forward to foil depression and lose the dark skies.

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      1. Oh man that’s good. See I sort of had a vague sense of that, but nowhere near the degree of detail you’ve just described.
        So then would you say the story’s moral is that the solution lies in sorting through your baggage?

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      2. I think it’s in becoming aware that the baggage is there and finding a way through it… and thank you, that was useful feedback. I now know that if I want to be sure of making sense, even in a metaphorical way, I need more detail/explanation.

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      3. I think it’s the writer’s job to guide the reader in putting the pieces together though. The difficulty is it’s a fine line between over and under explaining, particularly when using metaphor. I never know quite how much to leave to interpretation.

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      4. Too true! I think it’s better to go slightly under than over, because it can be good to have your readers work for it, not to mention an air of mystery and intellect is always nice. If you over-explain there’s always the risk of coming off as repetitive or even condescending.

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